Bout to work an 18 hour shift. Fml. I hate you fucking people and your desperacy to save money.
I haven’t even put pants on yet. I’m wrapped up in a blanket, waiting for my coffee to brew, and trying to find something on TV.
I AGREE WITH KIMBERS REPLY TO THE AUTHOR TO SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I need a night to myself to just chill out and relax. I think I’m going to load up some video games to play when I get home and just marathon it. Games I’m in the mood for:
- Counter-Strike: Source
- Day of Defeat: Source
- Grand Theft Auto: Vice City
- Max Payne 2: The Fall of Max Payne
- Half-Life 2
One of the last chapters was really good. It was when the main character was meeting with his (ex-)girlfriend and she asks him if he ever cared about her. He goes on to say he didn’t and she asks if he ever cared a few more times. He says he doesn’t want to care because if he does it’ll be worse, just another thing to worry about. That it’s less painful if he doesn’t care.
Looking on these lines I have seen myself doing the same thing in the past and even more so now. I don’t care about things not because I am simply lazy or anything. I don’t care because it removes the pain from life. If you stop caring you remove consequence from yourself and your eyes.
I’m not saying this is the way to live because you cannot stop all pain, physical or mental, and pain is a significant part of feeling alive. It’s just something that you can remove if you wish to cheat yourself out of one of the biggest parts of being alive.
…test run is imminent.
I AM LIKE AN OLD MAN.
Psh, it’s 10PM over here on the east coast and I just finished making a pot of coffee and am just getting ready to start cracking on revising this paper to take it from an A- paper to an A paper. Catch up with us other 20-somethings!
Even though right after I finish the paper I’m totally smoking a bowl and relaxing the rest of the night. Maybe going to finish Less Than Zero or play some games.
I guess now is a good of time as ever to start this lab that is due tomorrow.