November 2010
24 posts
vala:
Bout to work an 18 hour shift. Fml. I hate you fucking people and your desperacy to save money.
I haven’t even put pants on yet. I’m wrapped up in a blanket, waiting for my coffee to brew, and trying to find something on TV.
pie0:
I AGREE WITH KIMBERS REPLY TO THE AUTHOR TO SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I need a night to myself to just chill out and relax. I think I’m going to load up some video games to play when I get home and just marathon it. Games I’m in the mood for:
- Counter-Strike: Source
- Day of Defeat: Source
- Grand Theft Auto: Vice City
- Max Payne 2: The Fall of Max Payne
- Half-Life 2
- Borderlands
Spoilers:
One of the last chapters was really good. It was when the main character was meeting with his (ex-)girlfriend and she asks him if he ever cared about her. He goes on to say he didn’t and she asks if he ever cared a few more times. He says he doesn’t want to care because if he does it’ll be worse, just another thing to worry about. That it’s less painful if he doesn’t care.
Looking on these lines I have seen myself doing the same thing in the past and even more so now. I don’t care about things not because I am simply lazy or anything. I don’t care because it removes the pain from life. If you stop caring you remove consequence from yourself and your eyes.
I’m not saying this is the way to live because you cannot stop all pain, physical or mental, and pain is a significant part of feeling alive. It’s just something that you can remove if you wish to cheat yourself out of one of the biggest parts of being alive.
…test run is imminent.
I AM LIKE AN OLD MAN.
Psh, it’s 10PM over here on the east coast and I just finished making a pot of coffee and am just getting ready to start cracking on revising this paper to take it from an A- paper to an A paper. Catch up with us other 20-somethings!
Even though right after I finish the paper I’m totally smoking a bowl and relaxing the rest of the night. Maybe going to finish Less Than Zero or play some games.
Midway on our life’s journey, I found myself
In dark woods, the right road lost. To tell
About those woods is hard - so tangled and rough
And savage that thinking of it now, I feel
The old fear stirring
Stumbling through the dark with a broken heart, all alone at it once again
Seeping in like a feeling you haven’t felt since way back when
In the dead of that night, like the Summer of Sam
I caught word of the commotion you cause via telegram
And got all worked up, we got all worked up
I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I’m diving in
Don’t follow me, stay right here I’ll be back for you someday
I found away, it’d be best if you just stayed
It’s not safe, don’t follow me
I found away, I found away
Frozen in the lights of a locomotive, tied to the tracks again
You said you haven’t felt this comatose since you can’t remember when
You fly off the handle every time we sleep, straight off the deep
I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I’m diving in
Don’t follow me, stay right here I’ll be back for you someday
I found away, it’d be best if you just stayed
It’s not safe, don’t follow me
I found away, I found away
Away…
Away…
From the top of my lungs the truth shall be sung, sharp and damning
Violently stabbing at secrecy
That look on your face, it’s more than I can take it’s scaring
The living hell straight out of me
I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I’m diving in
Don’t follow me, stay right here I’ll be back for you someday
I found away, it’d be best if you just stayed
It’s not safe, don’t follow me
I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I found away, I found away, I found away
I guess now is a good of time as ever to start this lab that is due tomorrow.
