I have learned to care again.

It’s time to clean my car. Hopefully going to Primanti’s later on. I wish somebody would’ve manned up and went to see The Offspring and Dropkick Murphy’s with me in Columbus tonight. All I’ve wanted to do since I was 11 years old is see The Offspring live…

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That’s four videos in a week.
They haven’t given me strikes on them, but it still pisses me off.

If I can’t express myself freely, then youtube can suck a dick.

I hate knowing that there are videos out there, not only yours, but many others that I haven’t been allowed to view because someone in a suit sitting in a room somewhere thought me or any other number of people wouldn’t have been able to handle the content or would have been offended by it.

Fuck those people that complain about things they choose to watch.

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Regardless of the quality of their character.
It’s been the downfall of my entire existence.  I date pretty girls instead of good ones.  This makes me a shallow fuck and makes me hate myself.

There has to be someone genuine out there that is more than just a pretty face or a nice body.  There has to be. I haven’t found her yet.  I haven’t even come close.  But she exists.  Somewhere.

Beauty < Integrity

No girl I have ever dated or fucked has had that mentality.  It’s always beauty > everything else. That gives people excuses to be selfish.  That gives people empty reason.  it’s making me empty.

Stop feeding the cannibals, Cody.

You have just summed up how I’ve been my entire life as well. I’ll think a girl has a good personality but would not be able to see myself with her due to physical beauty. It’s a shitty way to be.

My cousin is having her graduation party today. It doesn’t seem like that long ago that I myself was having one, I guess it’s only been 3 years but it seems like much longer. I feel old today and it feels like I’ve done nothing since I’ve gotten out of high school. Some of my other friends and cousins are semi-accomplished at this point and it makes me feel like I’m not moving fast enough and I’m going to miss out. I hope I don’t. I’ve always been slow with getting where I want to go.

…work has taken all my time. This weekend I’m off. This situation must be addressed.